I Wish Spinach Would Make me Stronger!

I am trying to find the strength to take care of my children. It can be soooo hard to take care of their special needs. I wish I was stronger to deal with the day to day meltdowns, panic attacks and whining. I want my kids to be happy. That's all I want.I feel like Sarah is happy most of the time but Elizabeth seems so miserable. I wish I could have one normal day where there is peace in my house.
I had to fight Elizabeth 45 minutes today to sit in her car seat because she saw a fly in the car and she is deathly afraid of flies. I just want her to be calm and content in her little body. He sensory issues are so bad that it is hard to see her sweet little spirit. I see glimpses of it from time to time.
I guess I will have to wait for the day when we are in Heaven and her and I can have a normal conversation. How I long for that. I just need to be grateful for what I can learn from her and Sarah now.

New Weight Loss Plan

I am starting a new weight loss plan.....I am doing the Visalus 90 day challenge. I drink 2 of their shakes and then have a sensible meal at dinnertime.
 I have almost been through my first day on this new plan. I must say, I am pleasantly surprised. I haven't been starving like I normally am when I change eating habits. I am determined to make it through the 90 days. I am hoping this first 90 days will give me a good jump start at getting some of this weight off.
Wish me luck!