I Wish Spinach Would Make me Stronger!

I am trying to find the strength to take care of my children. It can be soooo hard to take care of their special needs. I wish I was stronger to deal with the day to day meltdowns, panic attacks and whining. I want my kids to be happy. That's all I want.I feel like Sarah is happy most of the time but Elizabeth seems so miserable. I wish I could have one normal day where there is peace in my house.
I had to fight Elizabeth 45 minutes today to sit in her car seat because she saw a fly in the car and she is deathly afraid of flies. I just want her to be calm and content in her little body. He sensory issues are so bad that it is hard to see her sweet little spirit. I see glimpses of it from time to time.
I guess I will have to wait for the day when we are in Heaven and her and I can have a normal conversation. How I long for that. I just need to be grateful for what I can learn from her and Sarah now.

New Weight Loss Plan

I am starting a new weight loss plan.....I am doing the Visalus 90 day challenge. I drink 2 of their shakes and then have a sensible meal at dinnertime.
 I have almost been through my first day on this new plan. I must say, I am pleasantly surprised. I haven't been starving like I normally am when I change eating habits. I am determined to make it through the 90 days. I am hoping this first 90 days will give me a good jump start at getting some of this weight off.
Wish me luck!

Hola! There is a Crafty Chick In The House

So ya'll I actually completed a craft project. I had to do a "How To" manual for my Technical Writing class and decided to make a fabric headboard for the project. I must say that it turned out decently. I am seriously craft challenged so I am proud of my work of art.

Amazing

I have been doing a lot of You Tubing (is that an accurate thing to call it when looking on you tube)these past few days and stumbled upon this amazing music video sung by Nicole Sheahan. She is super talented and I totally want to by her CD off of I Tunes.

I need to shake this feeling Off!

I hate to admit it and I am embarrassed to say it, but I too often compare myself to others. I wish I could have a life like this or that person. Or a clean house like that person. Or good crafting skills like that person over there. Or a perfect body after having multiple children like this other person.
Well ladies and gentlemen, I feel like a loser today. I wish it weren't that way.
I totally know who is putting these feelings of inadequacy in my head. Quite frankly, I want to tell him to leave me alone. Dangit!
I am not a loser. I am important! My life may not be perfect but I am doing as best as I can.
I am Beautiful and Special to Heavenly Father. I found this song in my loser moment today and wanted to share this because it helped me feel better.

Guess What I am Doing During My Spring Break!?!

For Spring Break this year I have decided that instead of going on a vacation by myself.....I am......YOu probably already guessed (haha just kidding)..... getting my left eyelid redone. Doesn't that sound like lots of fun??? I am actually kinda excited about it. I am hoping that once the surgery is done, my left eyelid will match my right eyelid. I am tired of looking like I am blinking in all of my pictures. I am tired of feeling like people are staring at my droopy lid. Hopefully this surgery will give me a self esteem boost.
I guess it is better then getting a boob job.

OUCH!

I always have told Cory that child birth is very painful and he would never ever know what it is to push out a kid.
That being said, this past week poor Cory has had shingles. I have always heard it can be painful but until you see a loved one go through it it is hard to imagine. The poor thing thought he had a pinched nerve and just said he would suck it up. On Wednesday night, he was getting ready for bed and felt something weird on his back. He came in and asked me to see what it was. To my horror it was a red blistery inflamed rash. Not only was it on his back, but it was also on his chest. Cory has been in so much pain that he can't get out of bed. He has even been groaning from pain in his sleep. I am hoping that he will recover soon. Shingles can last awhile. He said it is more painful then when he broke his collar bone.
This experience has also made me grateful that I am not a single mom. It is hard taking care of 2 small kids day in and day out without any help or anytime to take a small break.